5 Year Journal Day 169

     Today's prompt is "The best hour of today was ____. Why?" The best hour of yesterday was the hour when I woke up. I was not in pain at the time. 

     It is now 1:29 a.m. here and I have probably been awake since 11:30, but I just now decided to get out of bed because I was not falling asleep. Yesterday, I don't know what happened to me, but I neglected to take both my morning and afternoon medications and supplements. I ended up being in pain for a long time. I was sooo exhausted and tired, I just didn't want to do anything but sleep. Caleb wouldn't let me sleep. 

     Caleb spent the morning making frozen pao de queijo in the oven. He also ended up making pierogies. I failed to give him his morning medications too. SMH. I'm normally so good about medications. I don't know. I paid the price for it though. Caleb was bouncing off the walls , and I was in pain all over. It's my time of the month, and while I am skipping my period this month, I still have the PCOS symptoms to deal with- the inflammation of my pelvic bones and lower back pain, and cramps. My whole body hurt though, and it was raining on and off so that did not help either. 

     We did nothing but bake and eat the whole morning. I slept the majority of the afternoon. Or tried to sleep, rather. 

     Today we are supposed to go pick seashells on the beach, but it really depends on the weather. Obviously, we aren't going in the rain. 

     I got my belly/back brace yesterday in the mail. I hope to try it on today and see if it helps. I'm sure that if it fits, it will certainly help. I hope to be able to be more productive with less pain throughout the day. 

     I am waiting on the boots I ordered from Kohl's to arrive so I can return them since Caleb decided he wanted the pair from Walmart instead. 

     I have a huge pile of papers in my workspace again. It's time to reorganize and de-clutter. I have alot of house cleaning to catch up on. I always have alot of housework to do. 

     I got a refund for services I apparently paid for in 2019 yesterday, and I can't figure out what medical services I paid for. It says it is from a Radiology Office. Was it when I was feeling like I might be having a heart attack? Hmm...

     There is a man who wants to meet me, but I don't know how I feel about it. I do not want to rush into a relationship. I am not looking for sex. I do not know that I want to be in a relationship ever again. I have not fully healed from Christinia , my dad, and Sharon's abuses. I am just finding a new path that I am choosing to take. 

     I wonder if it will rain again today. I really would like to get some seashells.