Thursday, November 26, 2020

5 Year Journal Day 188

      Today's prompt is " Who is your best friend?" Rachel.

     It is 1:11 a.m. here. Yesterday was a busy and productive day. Caleb and I went to put gas in the car after getting my money back from Billy's girlfriend. From there we went to Walmart to grab some groceries for Thanksgiving dinner and Thanksgiving day with the gift cards donated to us from the church. On the way home, we stopped at CVS to pick up Caleb's refill. Then, I decided to go to Publix to buy some bread. Just that alone was alot to do. Caleb brought in the groceries, and I put them away. I put together some Christmas presents, while Caleb went fishing. 

     I needed a nap badly. My lower back hurt. So I rested for a few hours. When Caleb woke me up and I went to the bathroom, I realized how inflamed and hot my legs were. They were bright red, especially my knees. I must have forgotten to take my afternoon dosage of supplements. That would explain the back pain too. My feet hurt, my legs were sore, my pelvis, and my lower back all hurt. I still had to get up to make dinner.

     I went out to the kitchen and sat at the dinner table to drink a Dew to wake up. I took 2 doses each of my afternoon medications. I would have taken a night time dose anyway. I just didn't want to wait. 

     My allergies are getting worse. I have sinus congestion, and am sneezing during the day, and coughing in my sleep. My right nostril is so dry I have to lubricate it with cocoa butter so it doesn't bleed when I blow my nose. 

     I couldn't resist picking at a scab on my face yesterday, and I made it much worse. Now I have a silver dollar-sized lump on my second chin. It is swollen and hard. 

     I apparently scratched my forearm in my sleep, and woke up with blood all over my arm. 

     I'm a mess. 

     It was late before I started to boil water to make pasta for spaghetti. While I was waiting for the noodles to cook, I washed some dishes, and finished loading the dishwasher. I had to soak some dishes so I couldn't wash them all. 

     I made spaghetti, but it wasn't my best. I used a different sauce that I am not fond of. I have never tried it before last night. I will never buy it again. 

     I am just so thirsty. I kept waking up before I came out to my computer, and needing to drink water. I could not fall back asleep and stay asleep so I just got out of bed. 

     Today is Thanksgiving. I am planning on cooking turkey breast with red potatoes and green beans in the crock pot. I am going to make sweet potatoes, and might also make stuffing. I don't know if I will bother with the gravy. I have a can of cranberry sauce that I will probably be the only one eating. I bought the very last flaky biscuits Walmart had. 

     I bought some snacks to munch on during the day. I really wanted some cocktail shrimp, so I bought a ring. I also got some tortilla chips and jalepeno - artichoke dip, salsa, artichoke hearts, and hearts of palm. I wanted jalepeno stuffed olives but the store was sold out. I wasn't going to, but I splurged on one bottle of white and one bottle of red sparkling juice to have with our dinner. 

     Sharon use to make veggie platters to munch on. Sometimes there would be crackers and cheese. Sometimes we would have olives. She always made alot of food. She would make green bean casserole, sweet potatoes, lil' smoked sausages in barbeque sauce, mashed potatoes, homemade stuffing from scratch, and a huge turkey that she needed help getting into the oven. She would decorate the table with the good dishes. We would have sparkling juice in champagne glasses. Holiday cooking was her specialty. She spent a lifetime perfecting her techniques. There would be at least 2 different kinds of pies. Of course there was cranberry sauce and gravy. Sometimes there was corn on the cob and biscuits. 

     Sharon's Christmas was similar, but usually with ham. She would make homemade fruit cake and cookies. We would eat a big dinner on Christmas Eve, and have a buffet on Christmas morning. 

     We normally watched the Macy's  Thanksgiving Day Parade. We will not be able to watch it on the tv this year because the cable box is broken and I have not had the cable guy come to fix it yet. 

     Caleb is asleep on the couch and Bella followed me from my room and is sleeping on the floor not far from me. 

     I am getting tired again. I am still super thirsty.

     As much as they drove me crazy, I still miss my dad and Sharon. It's unfortunate that we cannot be together. 

     Aunt Lisa wanted to have a big Thanksgiving before grandpa passed away. It was cancelled due to Covid-19 concerns anyway, but it would have been awesome to be able to go. 

     I contacted my mom to make sure that Kenneth's eye surgery went well on Tuesday.

     I contacted Donna to make sure she was not going to be alone for Thanksgiving day, and had food. 

     I made sure Billy went out and bought food to eat yesterday. That turd did not even realize the stores would be closed because it is Thanksgiving Day already. 

     I did not get around to working on moving the rest of my books like I planned, but I might get to it today. I did have Caleb restart the dryer for me. I should have some of my clothes in that load, which means I can take a shower today and change my clothes. 

     I still have alot of laundry to do. 

     Oh! I spent $50 on toilet paper and paper towels yesterday at Walmart! Holy Shit! I don't remember paying that much for paper products. Maybe it has just been a long time since I bought them. I was disheartened by having to use that much of the gift card money on stuff that I should have bought out of my own money, however, I did not have any money. It is forecasted that people will begin hoarding paper products again like they did earlier this year. I do not want to be without toilet paper. 

     I was gifted a $150 Walmart gift card with the idea that $50 was for Thanksgiving dinner, $50 was Christmas dinner, and $25 per person for Christmas gifts. Yeah, I left Walmart having spent the whole damn thing, and not buying one present for Caleb or myself. I have no money for Christmas dinner or Christmas presents now. Sucks. 

     On the one hand, I feel guilty for having done that. On the other hand, I did buy what we needed and could not afford right now. I did buy things for Thanksgiving day and Thanksgiving dinner. I hope I can pull some money out of the budget to get the other things I wanted to get for Caleb. I can do without Christmas presents. I buy what I want throughout the year. I do not need to buy myself presents, but this is the best time to buy things like gift sets of body care products, the popcorn tub that I get him every year and he absolutely loves, and a can of Christmas cookies! He wants candies so badly too. I just want to give him these things. 

     Caleb's birthday is New Year's Eve. I have to get gifts for that too. Oh, what am I going to do?

     Well, I guess I will sleep on it. I've gotta take my iron and I am dying for more to drink. 

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