Today's prompt is " Something that made you worry today _____." I don't remember worrying.
It is now 5:22 a.m. here, and I am awake because I was being pushed off the bed by Bella. The 3 amigos crashed together on my bed last night. Everybody was under the same comforter to keep eachother warm because temperatures were suppose to get to the 30's overnight.
Yesterday, we drove to Wilmington and ate at a dine in restaurant. It was a Chinese buffet. We have not been there since before Covid-19 broke out. It was awesome to be back. The reason we went to Wilmington, though, was to return the shapewear to Lane Bryant. We did that after grabbing something to eat. That was really the whole day. Anytime we go to Wilmington, the day is gone.
The day was sunny and cool. Temperatures were in the 50's so I was able to wear a pair of jeans and a shirt with short sleeves comfortably. I didn't get a photo of my outfit, but I get a photo.
Fantastic hair day!
Yes, I walked around feeling beautiful, despite my big belly. It was a good day for me.
So, I haven't really been writing about some stuff that's been going on with me spiritually. I have been trying to figure out where I fit in. I don't fit in at the church. I just don't believe everything they preach, the way they preach it. I've written before about the ideas that I have that make me different. I'm looking for a safe place to practice being myself without the obligation to fit in with others in an unnatural way. I am studying different aspects of spirituality with a group of people who are in similar condition as me. It's very rewarding to know that I am not alone.
The holidays are coming up, and I am grateful to have family and friends to share them with. I will share with family over long distance, and friends at their house. I will not be depressed in my own home, behaving like it is any other day. On Veterans' Day, I will not go looking for a free meal this year. I would do that with my dad. I will not bother this year. On my 10 year anniversary, I do not know what I will do yet. I might just remember the good times I had in the Army, and light some candles, incense, and sage. I will say a prayer for those I am not in contact with and pray they are alive and well. On Thanksgiving, we will go to my friend's Donna's and celebrate with her and her kids. On Christmas Eve, we will probably watch Christmas movies and have a good dinner at home.
I am supposed to be getting my carpet cleaner in the mail today. I am excited about that. I can't wait to use it. I need to clean my carpet so badly.
I have not used the cinnamon bark or cloves essential oils yet, but I will. We will be putting up the Christmas tree soon too.
Today I have gentle mindfulness yoga group with the lady veterans. I am planning on doing some house cleaning, as I have not done any since Thursday. That's about it.
My mom has not been calling me like she use to do. I don't hear from Rachel unless I text her first.
I'm just going about my own way. They are happy living their lives without me, and I shouldn't be held back by thinking I am worthless because of that. I'm not worthless. I'm priceless.
I had some guy trying to sell me VooDoo Dolls.... I'm not about that life. If it's not about Love, Light, and Healing, it's not for me.
Caleb tried to give Bella a bath by himself yesterday. LOL That didn't work out the way he planned. It's a really hard job, that's why I do it when I have the energy and strength to do it.
I've been thrown into a different way of life since Thursday. Whatever that was, pre-seizure, mini-stroke, has gotten me trying to relax more often that not. I am taking more deep breaths throughout the day, and trying to remain centered and grounded. I am trying to be really careful that I don't bring that on again.
Well, I guess that is all for now!
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