Saturday, August 13, 2022

New Day Start 17

     It is 0316 and I have been awake for about an hour. I took my medications right away. Why? I don't know. Maybe so I wouldn't forget to take them. Anyway, I started working on my Capella classwork. I have a quiz due by midnight on Sunday. I don't want to try to do it while Caleb is awake because he likes to distract me with his neverending questions. I read the materials I needed and took the quiz. I got a 83 the first 2 times, and a 100 on the final attempt. I could not find the answer to one of the questions, so I was guessing. Thank God for multiple attempts! The class i am taking is called, "Foundations of Theory and Practice for Master's ABA Learners." I am glad that we have an introductory class to this setup online. It is not as easy as I hoped. There is so much information to read! Finding it can be difficult because I don't know what I'm doing.

    Yesterday when I left the computer, I did go take a shower. It was not as relaxing as I wanted because the water did not feel hot enough. I washed up in my Bath & Body Works' Eucalyptus and Spearmint bodywash ("Stress relief"). I like to use to use my dry brush as a body scrubber. I apply a heaping amount of bodywash on it and scrub from top to bottom as my hair is soaking the hair conditioner I put in. I don't take showers everyday like I use to, so it is even more important to do a good job cleaning myself up. 

    When I went to my room to get dressed, Caleb was still sleeping in my bed. I like to stand in front of the fan and portable air conditioner to air out a bit before I put my clothes on. I found some size 3x Speax underwear to wear, and found a new sports bra that I have not yet tried on to wear. I went to my closet to find a t-shirt, and what do I find? Puppy poop! Ugh! I tell Caleb a thousand times a day that if he is not watching Bubba, to put him in his crate. He doesn't listen. It's so frustrating.

    I found a new smaller sized t-shirt hanging up from the movie, "The Goonies." Yeah, I felt like that waws the right t-shirt for the day. I found some clean cotton shorts to wear with and then put my shoes back on. I came back out to my seat at the dining table and just did alot of nothing really, until Caleb woke up. I was very tired yesterday.

    After Caleb woke up, we found that we needed more paper towels, so we set out to go Walmart. I made a list of things I wanted to buy while we were there for that. We went shopping and stopped at CVS on the way back home to get Caleb's medication. We came back home, and I needed to eat. I had a simple lunchmeat and Swiss cheese for lunch. I wanted to get the living room cleaned up, so I started picking up trash that Caleb left in front of the front door. I spent maybe 10 minutes working, but made a big difference in being able to fully open the door. I got tired and needed a break, so I took a break. Then I decided I needed a nap. No sooner than I closed my eyes did thunder roll. 

    I slept for a couple of hours before I got  back up. I was not happy when I woke up and found Caleb playing video games and not working on what I told him to do before I went to sleep. Nothing was done! All I asked him to do was clear his messes off the kitchen island, pick up the trash from the floor, and take the kitchen trash out. Man I tell you!

    Earlier in the day, Donna and Gage stopped by to visit. I got at least 3 different hugs from Donna while she was here! Gage and Caleb took some photos together. The idea was to encourage Caleb to cooperate with the housecleaning efforts so he could go hang out with Gage today, Saturday. 

    Caleb argued with me all afternoon about getting the tasks done that I told him needed to be done. I don't know why he thinks that he is winning with that strategy, but he is wrong. My dad choked Caleb when he was 10 years old. It's this type of behavior that led to that, plus my dad is not the most stable person I know. 

    Today I am going to try to get more chores done. Hopefully I will not be so tired all day long. Last night I did not even make dinner. It was raining outside and I did not want to grill in the rain. I did not want to cook at all really because I was too tired. 

    Today I have laundry to wash, and chores to be done. Caleb will either cooperate or get grounded and have video games taken away.

    I put aside some items in my amazon cart for later. One is another bookcase, and the others are heavy-duty shelving units for the shed. Once it gets cool outside regularly, like it was yesterday, we can begin to re-organize the shed to make walking room in there. I want everything organized and up against the walls so we have room to put the lawnmower, weedeater, and chain saw once we take them out of the boxes. 

    I watched the very last video of my Reiki Master class yesterday evening. I did not have the energy to clean up after Caleb did no work. I took notes and completed the tasks I needed to in order to receive my Reiki Master certificate. 

    Sunday is a free day since I caught up on my homework already. I will likely have to do more cleaning. 

    "Clinging to the Vine," is being released on amazon on August 18th ! I hope you will buy our anthology. The main topic of our stories is closeness to God.



    My dad brought up how he "loved" my son "since day 1." I responded that their words were to have an abortion or give the baby up for adoption when I told them I was pregnant. I stopped talking to them after that. I was not in the United States at that time, I was in South Korea. Finding out I was unexpectedly pregnant was traumatic, and they had no reserve of love for me nor the baby. Instead of helping me, they hurt me worse than I already was! My mom wasn't any better. She said "You aren't going to bring him here and leave him!" Like really? How did I end up with these people as my parents? I couldn't even rely on them in that situation, when really I was on the other side of the world and not knowing what to do!

    My dad went about his conversation, not even listening to what I said more than one time. I could not wait to get off the phone with him. Maybe he is Autistic too. He seems to lack the ability to see my point of view, primarily because he won't shut up and listen to me. I get frustrated with him and stop talking. I get nowhere. 

    Anyway, this coming up week seems to be easy-going. I don't have appointments everyday like I did last week. I just have my zoom meeting with Coach Brandi, Coach Nick, and the group on Monday night, and a phone call from Dr. Kent the pharmD at the VA on Thursday. I will be starting Caleb's homeschool time on Monday. I will be continuing my class studies with Capella as well. Should be interesting. Caleb does not want to do the things I tell him to do. I don't know what his major malfunction is. It's irritating to the core. He has no idea what I have done for him up until this point of his life, and he takes it all for granted. I need to speak to him more. 

    Bella has been trying to coming over here, but the kitchen is blocked with filled reusable grocery containers. She likes to follow me everywhere I go, and lay by my feet. 

    Most of the testing I did with Ted was IQ testing. I'm guessing we did not do the written test because I brought him the notebook of all the Autism screening tests I have already done. I will have to ask him when I see him next. 

    I guess I should be going about getting my other morning routines done now. It is 0418 now. I'm just going to take this Saturday real nice and easy. I am going to get work done, but I am not going to pressure myself to try to get everything done today. I am going to do what I can, and that will have to be enough. Be blessed my readers!

     

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