It is now 0510 and I have been awake for at least 30 minutes now. I have taken my medications, and listened to the Grace audio from Erica Rock's mini course. I love her audios. I feel so good listening to them. I am listening to a new audio right now that is an activation audio. I like to write as I listen because I can't just sit here and do nothing for 30 minutes. It's not possible for me! LOL
Yesterday I felt dizzy most of the day. I may be listening to too many of Erica's audios at one time. Her audios are energetically charged and her energy comes through on the transmissions. I may be trying to heal too quickly for what my body can handle at one time. Also it was a New Moon, if I am not mistaken, yesterday, and we had solar flare activity. I am beginning to think I am sensitive to solar flares because whenever I read that they are happening, I am at the same time experiencing dizziness.
I just purchased my next phase of Erica audio files that I want to listen to. I should be good now for the next 6 months, as each audio requires time to settle in, and must be done according to instructions. I will be learning some new stuff too. I'm excited to be on this journey!
I discussed my plans for Capella University with my dad yesterday. He was disappointed like I expected, and did try to persuade me to find another option other than quitting. I considered it after giving it some thought, but what made the difference was my post on the Capella Society of ABA group page on Facebook. I posted what I was feeling and how I was planning to withdraw after this class because it is just too much for me to handle. Other students responded with kindness, and I took it to heart. Information about other students' progress and how they managed to get through was shared with me. I was so grateful to have that information I cannot even tell you! So, I think I will drop to one course from here on out. It will take me longer to graduate, but I am ok with that. I will make steady progress, and hopefully the stress will not be maxed out for me. I will be able to handle what is being asked of me because it won't be double Ever! Unfortunately this derails my plan to use my Post 9/11 GI bill for the next semester because I wanted to get the most use out of it, meaning paying for a full-time semester so I can get housing pay. I only have 3 months or so left of my GI bill, so I wanted it to cover as many classes as I could manage. I need more information. If those two classes don't require papers to be written I might be able to make them happen as planned. I have to ask an instructor for that information. I am happy that I do not have to quit. It seemed like the only option yesterday. I did not realize how much I wanted to pursue this degree until I started talking about it with my dad. I really want to complete my Master's Degree. It will put me one step closer to getting my phD. It is something I can slowly work on to better myself. As much as I struggled with the Literature Analysis Worksheet last week, I felt a great sense of accomplishment when I finished it. I have not felt that way about much lately. There are so many things that I do on repeat, it's almost like it doesn't matter that I do them because they will have to be done again. I am speaking about housecleaning and errand running. You know, the stuff that never ends. That is where my head has been lately. I have not even tried to make friends in class yet, and that was one of my personal goals. I want to meet other people who are interested enough in the topic we are studying to do this with me! I mean, what an opportunity! These people are truly amazing. I am happy to be counted as one of them.
I am going to plan ahead for these Erica Rock audios. I am going to use my planner to stay on track so I don't overwhelm myself in the future. I have to go back and look to see how many days rest I need in between listening to each.
Today kids in public school have day 1 of the school year. Caleb has his annual physical this morning with his doctor. We will discuss some things he might need help with. I don't think we will get started on homeschooling today necessarily, but we will likely get started this week.
I took only one hydroxyzine yesterday morning and night. I do not think that made me dizzy because the higher doses did not make me dizzy. It could have though as it it one of the side effects of taking it. I only took one hydroxyzine today too. I need something that can help me with my anxiety and stress throughout the whole day. I take CBD, but I don't notice a difference when I take it. I have some other anxiety reducing herbal supplements here too, like Lion's Mane Mushroom, Ultimate Ashwagandha, and Lavender. I have not tried them yet, but I will in the future. Once I have determined if I should just stay on one hydroxyzine or not. I might have to stop taking it to determine if the other supplements work for me. I need something to work for me that will not make me drowsy. Hydroxyzine has that side effect too. It says on the box of Lavender that it is non-drowsy. Perhaps I will try that one first.
I am looking forward to starting homeschooling with Caleb. I think we have a better understanding for eachother since we have done all these therapies as a family. I can't wait to see him learn!
So today Caleb has his appointment with his doctor that he does every year just to check in. The only other appointment I have today other than that is my standing appointment with Unleash Your Life group at 7:00pm. Tomorrow I have a one-on-one call with Coach Brandi in the morning. Then the only other appointment is on Thursday to take Bubba to the vet for his weigh-in and medication.
Caleb is not awake yet, and both of the dogs are sleeping with him in my bed.
It is now 0632, and I spent 30 minutes holding the energy on my head after listening to the Divine Energy Activation audio by Erica. I am going to use a special notebook or something to track my progress with all of this. It's too much to remember. I am so happy about it!
I feel good! It's Monday morning and I have not completed my morning routines yet. I have to get them done so I don't forget anything, and add start the laundry, and put draino in the tub drain to the list for this morning. I have not eaten breakfast yet. I don't want to forget that!
I have to check in with Capella to see what is expected of me as far as work that is due.
I ate not one, but three pieces of Texas Toast garlic bread with cheese on it last night. Caleb put it in my face and asked if I wanted it. I did not eat many carbs during the day, so I thought "Why not?" I know I am going to struggle to get back in ketosis now. I have restart all over again. I also ate most of a bag of Funions last night when I woke up in the middle of the night.
I want to pull some books out today and get Caleb acquainted with what's coming up. I know that preparation time helps me alot. I want him to flip through the books we will be studying from and clear his desk space, and collect his school supplies before we start working together.
Yesterday we went to Publix so I could get the good guacamole from there. We were actually on our way to Food Lion, but then I thought I should stop there first. So then we went to Food Lion and I replaced my salad ingredients that went bad before I could eat them. Caleb got his food, and I restocked on most of the drinks I am drinking nowadays. I forgot to look to see if they had my tea! Oh well.
We came home and I finished up my assignment and completed my quiz. I got a 60 the first time. The quiz is only about 7 or 8 questions, so I only missed 2 questions and that was my grade. I was able to repeat the quiz, and got a 100 the second time. I did it a third time because we have 3 times to do the quiz, and because the grades are then averaged together for a final quiz grade. Since I could repeat the 100, it was a good thing to do to bring my score up.
I was so happy to finish up that damned worksheet! When I went to look to see where/how to submit it, there was no link! I emailed the professor directly to find out what to do. I think she emailed me back last night after I fell asleep. I have a feeling I don't have to turn in that worksheet at all! OMG! The stress it caused me to get it done before it got late on Sunday! Oh well. At least I got it completed.
I did not do much else yesterday. I was dizzy the whole day, and so when I completed my assignment and quiz, I had some ham and cheese for lunch and went to lay down to take a nap. When I woke up, Caleb was not home. He came home soon after I got out of bed. I was not happy! He is not supposed to leave the house at all while I am napping. Ooooh! That boy does not understand even though he experienced that trauma with the boy pointing a gun on him at the Veterans Park.
I got the water bill yesterday and it was $100 more than usual! I told Claeb about his toilet running and make sure it stops running after he flushes. He apparently is not paying any attention to it, and this is what happens. Ugh!
I have not been feeling the andara I bought. I feel like I want them close to me at all times, but when I hold them I do not sense any changes. It may be that I have too much going on all the time to sense it. Or it may be that it is too subtle for to sense. Either way, they have been with me since I received them in the mail. I wear them in my tank top, since I don't wear a bra with my far infrared compression tank top. When it starts to bother me, like making me itch, I just put them on the table while I work.
I feel like I need a nap already, but what I really need to do is take a shower and brush my teeth. Maybe if I eat my ham cheese breakfast I will feel more energized. I just feel relaxed to the max. I still feel the energy of the audio I just listened to circling around me.
I text messaged my mom yesterday a photo of Bella and Bubba sleeping together on Caleb's blanket on the floor next to where I was doing my homework yesterday morning.
They are so cuddly and furry. My furbabies! I told her they were on guard and sleeping on duty! LOL She responded to my text, so that means I have not been blocked. So I am happy about that, because I was unsure. I need to ask her about my early childhood at some point in the future. I need to create a checklist of Autism symptoms in early childhood, so I know what I need to ask about. I can then take notes and submit it to Ted Jamison for review. Maybe he will change my diagnosis, maybe he won't. I won't know until I get that far.
The latest anthology that I have contributed to, "#BeastMode" is set to be release on amazon on September 1st. I don't remember what I wrote about. I have to reread it again. I forget what I write as soon as I write it. I bought a book that is supposed to show me how to improve my memory every day, but I haven't read it yet. I have alot of books that I want to read. I have not completed reading "Let Go or Be Dragged" by Sheila Farr yet. I don't remember what I wrote in that chapter I contributed either. once I read what I wrote, I can give you a summary. Once I read what other authors wrote, I can give a summary on those too. Sheila Farr read them all before publishing, so I know they are all great!
My 7:00 alarm just went off, so I have to get my day started. Be blessed my readers!
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