It is now 0353. I have not been able to sleep all night. I was too hot and my CPAP wasn't pushing enough air through to breathe comfortably. Later the dogs started playing on the bed. I kept trying to go to sleep but then Caleb woke up and put a gaming video on the tv. As if that wasn't bad enough, he kept waking me up to ask me to stay awake. I finally gave up completely about 30 minutes ago or so and got out of bed. I had trouble falling asleep to begin with because we had dinner around 1500. I require a full belly to sleep soundly, but I did not go to bed until about 1800 or so. By then I no longer felt full. I eventually got up to eat some ham and cheese in the hopes that I could fall asleep, but that didn't happen. Today is going to be a hard day. I already know I will have to force myself to stay awake later in the day because I did not sleep during the night.
Part of me wonders if any of this has to do with purchasing Andara right before I went to lay down. It has been said this "glass-like" rock can be felt through photos and videos. I did not feel anything through the screen but I was drawn to the ones I chose to buy. I then could not help but stare at their photos. They are so beautiful. Maybe that was them "talking" to me.
I'm not really in the mood to do anything. Usually after I've slept a few hours, and I wake up this early, I can do some work. Without having any sleep, I'm not motivated to work. I went to the Capella University webpage to see what this week brings. I wanted to get started on my homework since I am up, and Caleb is asleep, but I'm too tired. Lightning just flashed outside my window. Thunder rolled too.
Yesterday I was up early and I was fine to get work done. I balanced my checkbook and did my Reiki practice. I took a hot shower and put on some fresh and clean clothes. Caleb got up and helped me put on my Far Infrared Ray compression tank top that is too tight to pull down around my shoulder blades by myself. I handwashed a bunch of dishes, and pre-washed the dishes that go in the dishwasher. I washed out the crockpot so I could begin cooking the boneless pork ribs I bought on sale for dinner. I started tidying up the kitchen in the hopes of getting it cleared out of all the trash and recycling since Monday morning is our trash and recycling pickup. I lit candles and incense and listened to the radio the whole time I worked.
Caleb slept alot during the day, but when he got up he helped me by taking the trash out and sweeping the kitchen floor. I fed him the boneless pork ribs as soon as they were ready and he enjoyed them.
Today I only have one appointment and that is at night. I will likely spend the day finishing what I set out to do yesterday. I swear this mission drags on. As soon as I clean the kitchen, Caleb comes around and leaves his soda cans, spills his food, leaves his dirty dishes around! I'm stuck in a cycle because I can't get Caleb to clean up after himself. I need to break this cycle. He has to learn to clean up after himself or I am going to lose my shit from not being able to complete the missions I set out to complete. I have so much other work I have to do. I still have not gone through those storage containers that I packed with the stuff from the china cabinet.
This week in school we are learning how to use the research library. I have an assignment that requires research that is due in week 6. I need to look ahead and see what I am eventually going to have to do. I am not ready to do my homework right now. There is a storm outside. It sounds like it is raining pretty hard. I am so grateful for my new roof.
I feel like waking Caleb up. It is only 0444. I feel like we should be working on our goals together. I don't want to deal with a teenager with a bad attitude though. Hmm... what to do, what to do? LOL
It's raining and my back hurts as well as my left shoulder. I'm going to lay down for a bit. Be blessed my readers!
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