New Start Day 16

     I never found the journal with the prompts I wanted to use. I am still looking for one. It is now 0619, and I have been awake for less than an hour. Yesterday I had my psychological evaluation. I was so tired all day long that I did not know how I would perform. Ted Jamison is a nice guy to work with, and so I did better than I expected. The testing was long. I was dying without my vape and soda. I struggled to sit still. I stared at the wall alot while I was trying to give answers to questions. 

    I stayed in bed instead of going to my Reiki Master class graduation. I was so tired. I could not stay up until 1930 when it started. I feel badly about missing it. There was some other stuff I was supposed to learn then too. I hope it was recorded so I can watch it today.

    I have no appointments today, thank God! I am still tired, but not as bad as I was yesterday. I never took a shower yesterday. The only thing I did yesterday was go to my psych eval appointment. I did not even brush my hair! I was a hot mess. I hope to take a shower today.

    Both Bella and Bubba are awake now. Bella came out of the bedroom a few minutes ago. Bubba is in his crate playing with a squeaky toy. 

    I got some of my homework done yesterday. I did not get it all done. There is alot of reading I have left to do. I have been thinking of how I am going to be able to pay for groceries coming up. For the next while I will be using the refund from the student loan, but what do I do after that? I haven't gotten it figured out yet. I am accruing debt on my credit cards just to make ends meet. I am trying to pay them off as soon as possible so I am not accruing interest. 

    I have so much work to do, and no energy to get it done. I barely ate yesterday. I was just too tired. I had to drink my Propel to wake up for my appointment. I am using my Alpha-Stim right now. I don't know why I felt the need to use it this morning. I took my anxiety medication when I woke up at 2030 last night because I could not fall into a deep sleep. The trazadone I use does not keep me asleep for long.

    Now that my Alpha-Stim is done, I will go take a shower. Maybe that's my problem. Be blessed my readers!