I weigh in on Monday mornings. I gained 4.8 lbs. in one week. I am concerned. I have not been able to exercise. I have not even been meditating daily. I did not consume enough calories to have gained that much weight in 1 week. Where is this weight coming from?
I went in for a fasting lab this morning at the local VA clinic. I am having my A1C checked, and maybe some other things through blood work. I am now waiting for the test results. I have not been feeling well lately, and requested a glucose meter to be able to check if it my blood sugar that is causing me to feel this way. Without being able to test, there is no way to know for sure. I am just trying to narrow down the causes to my feeling ill. If I can determine the cause, I might be able to do something about it, so that it doesn't keep happening.
I quit the keto diet in mid April. From April 27th to today, I have gained 11 lbs. 4.8 lbs. were gained just in last week. If you consider that each pound is 3,500 calories, you will see why I say I did not consume enough to cause that weight gain. I track my meals daily. I can easily look back and determine approximately my calorie intake.
I am frustrated because I can not determine the cause of my weight gain. Yes, I quit keto, but I have not been binge eating carbohydrates. I have been eating rice several times a week, and pasta maybe once a week. I eat beans nearly everyday. That's the other thing. Even though I am eating beans, taking psyllium fiber capsules, and a stool softener, I am still dealing with constipation every day. Sorry if that's TMI. It is what it is.
I take Victoza for appetite control, but it doesn't work for me. It does absolutely nothing for me.
I emailed my primary care about my concerns, and am waiting for a response.
I have been writing my neighbor, who is in jail, about once or twice a week. Some of my mail was returned because there is a limit to how many pages (10) and how many photos (2) you can send. Who knew? I'm not happy about it. It's not like I was sending porn.
Nichole is very stressed out and is still in crisis. I miss her greatly, as we do not get to talk often. I find myself in a semi-depression because my routine has been altered by having her removed from it. I was able to call her multiple times a day, and her me. Now it is not that way. I don't hear from her every day. She is my connection to Mathew, since he is deployed. So not only did I lose contact with her, but also with my brother and their children.
I am already making plans for hurricane season. I will be moving inland if I have to evacuate. My friend, Rachel, will house us until we can return home. I need to save money to be able to afford to live away from my home. I don't have an emergency savings right now. It's a stressor for me. Hurricane happens every year around here. It's bound to be a bad season.
This is Caleb's first week of Summer break. He is already driving me nuts. He argues with me every time I ask him to do something he doesn't want to do. I have to rethink my strategy. He's getting too big for his britches, as we say around here.
I graduated from my WoVen women veterans' group on Sunday. There are no more classes. I requested that we stay in touch somehow. I applied for the apprenticeship program to become a leader, but have not heard anything back yet. I have been asked to join the next group, coming up in late June, to just monitor. I can add to the group if I want, but I don't have to participate if I don't want. Mainly it is to learn the role of the leader, now that I have finished with taking the class myself.
I applied for a scholarship to a year-long program that starts in July. It is focused on energy healing, and I hope I can take the classes.
Businesses are opening back up, people are going back to work, there are riots and protests daily. The world is in chaos mode. My family will continue to wear masks and stay at home. We will not be attending church any time soon. We will not gather in groups. We will not travel. It's just not safe.
I already know who I am voting for in November, and it WON'T be Trump!
I am so far behind in my chores and house keeping. I am not motivated to keep trying when my son destroys my works minutes after I'm done. I have to find a way to get him to understand that if I keep cycling through the same chores and never getting "to the next level", the house will never be clean. Maybe I should explain how it makes me feel to live this way. It's exhausting and I feel like a hamster running on a wheel. I'm not getting anywhere fast.
I have been reading the book my Aunt Lisa sent me, "The Gifts of Imperfection" by Brene Brown. I don't remember a lot of what I have read so I will have to read it again. I really enjoy this book, so that's not a problem. I can relate to much of what she has written. I wish my memory was better. I have to take the Life Coach certification class all over again too for the same reason. I don't remember what I learned. There is a wealth of information in the class, and I rushed right through it. There have been updates to the class since I have taken it, so it will be worth doing it again to refresh my memory.
I started a new chair yoga class today. I really enjoyed the women veterans' class at the VA, but I can not afford to drive 2 hours for a 1 hour class every week. It's exhausting, and contradicts the reasons for going. So, this class is online, and I can do it at home. I am trying to incorporate yoga into my daily schedule, as well as meditating. I would like to include walking, but have been unsuccessful lately. If I work on the areas that cause me pain, and strengthen them, there is hope I can walk more in the future.
I almost completed Mona Delfino's class. I have about 30 more minutes of video to watch. She is a great teacher! If you are interested in energy healing, I highly recommend her class. She gave us so much useful information including exercises, guided meditations, and empowerment statements. She is a very lively spirited woman, and is entertaining to watch.
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