5 Year Journal Day 38

     Today's prompt is "What are three things you have to buy?" Well, since I went out shopping yesterday, not much. I had to buy replacement steri-strips for Caleb's hand. I ended up buying $80 in first aid supplies. I needed a pair of dressing scissors, liquid bandage, butterfly bandages, steri-strips, more generic neosporin with pain relief, bleedstop pouches, ear plugs, miralax, and disposable lens wipes. Yep, I may have trained as Medic, just maybe. I didn't "need" all of that stuff, but I have a Caleb, and I figured I would be prepared.

     I tried to sleep through the night but I kept waking up. Wake up, Go back to sleep. Wake up. Go back to sleep. I didn't want to write my blog at 2:30 in the morning this morning. It's 9:26 am now.

     Yesterday I was achy, tired, and sore. I didn't walk. I took a rest day instead. I didn't do everything I set out to do, but I still pushed myself to do some things. It's hard to rest when there's so much cleaning up that needs to be done.

     I had to order Caleb a new wardrobe. He can't find the clothes I feel I just bought for him. I bet they are hidden under the bed. I just paid that credit card off, and now it's maxed again. What can I do about it? I don't have the cash on hand, and my boy is growing fast.

     Caleb "found" my weighted vest and is in love with it. It has 20lbs. of weights in it, but it holds up to 80lbs.

     I cooked salmon for the first time in probably 15 years. Caleb loved it so much, he requested that all future purchases of fish be salmon! Awesome! I love it when he likes healthy foods. He's the only 11 year old I know who will eat brussels sprouts, asparagus, cabbage, collard greens. broccoli, zucchini, zucchini squash, cucumbers, and celery without argument. It's funny though, he won't eat salad.

     I started the new WoVen group last night. I am hopeful I will emerge with new friends. It's one thing to read about PTSD, it's another to live with it. The same goes for most diagnoses.

     I haven't been keeping up with my online classes. I have been putting my energy towards walking. It takes a lot to get me on that incline trainer. There is a great part of me that fights it because it's going to cause pain. It's going to make me tired. It's going to take time away from other things. The other part of me knows it's what I need to do to get better. It's an internal war!

     It's dark here and looks like it's going to be raining all day today. It's good day to stay at home.
      I have to go back and read what I wrote the past few days because I know I brought up some stuff that I want to remember to do, but I have already forgotten it.