It is now 0421, and I have been awake for about an hour. I woke up because my CPAP went off, I wanted a drink, I needed to use the bathroom, I was too warm, and I heard Caleb get up. I took my medications. I decided to go a day without Hydroxyzine to see if I can make it through the day without staying in bed. I did not take Trazadone, Melatonin, nor Hydroxyzine last night. I stayed in bed almost all day yesterday. While I enjoy my bed, I enjoy being productive better than staying in it. Besides I wasn't feeling well at all, which is why I stayed in bed. I feel more awake this morning already. I updated my Biomarkers spreadsheet for Dr. Kent. It has my weigh-ins, glucose readings, and ketone readings on it. I am hoping today will be better than yesterday. I felt like shit all day yesterday. I was worried I would not complete my homework that was due yesterday, but I did complete it when I felt a little better. I am wondering if I am going through a detox from the energy transmissions I am listening to. I had that one for trauma and abuse on Tuesday. I know that some stuff might come up, and I should feel it and release it once it does. Other than that, I do not know what to expect.
Part of me thinks that the Melatonin is too strong and lasts too long for me. I took it on top of the Trazadone and one Hydroxyzine the night before last. I was desperate for a good night's sleep. Part of me thinks I overworked myself on Wednesday, and caused myself a fibromyalgia flare up. I use to be able to do my weekly chores one after the other with no problems, until everything was completed, when I was younger. Getting old sucks.
I can't really make plans in advance because of my health conditions. I never know if I'm going to be feeling sick.
I got my discussion post completed yesterday, and responded to 3 other students' posts. Now all I have to do is revamp my Literature Analysis worksheet for turn-in on Sunday.
Yesterday morning Jerry came by and asked if Caleb wanted to go to the park to hit golf balls. Of course Caleb wanted to go!
I felt bad for Caleb yesterday because I was not feeling well and stayed in bed most of the day. I did not want to be bothered. He is a high-energy kid, and I can't keep up with him on a good day!
Yesterday afternoon, while I was working on my homework, Caleb wanted to go to his friend Tristan's house on 14th St. He rode his bike over to say hi. Apparently there were other kids there too, who when Tristan went inside the house to get ready for football practice, called Caleb a "Pussy" and a "Sex Offender." At some point, they wound up at the Veterans' Park, and one of the boys pulled a knife on Caleb. He came home after adults at the park split them up. Caleb was not physically hurt. I don't know what's wrong with these kids these days. They are carrying weapons and starting shit to use them.
It's like, why can't we all just get along? I'm so angry that this happened to my son. He only wanted to hang out with Tristan.
I was listening to Unlimited Abundance track 8 before I started typing. I took a break to listen to the Lightbody Activation Meditation so I could get out of my head about yesterday. I am feeling better. I am still pretty awake. I do not feel sickly. I am not dizzy or tired. I am ok.
Today is Friday. I was supposed to bring Bubba to the vet yesterday for his weigh-in and medication refills, but I did not feel well enough to drive, so we stayed home. I am hoping to feel well enough this morning to take him in real quick, and then go to CVS to pick up Caleb's medication refills. I also need to go to the post office to send my dad some mail he got here. I think that is all the running around I have to do today.
I want to get some laundry done. I did not get that started yesterday. I want to clean up my room. There is all kinds of stuff on the floor. Caleb knocked over one of my storage boxes and never picked up the stuff that fell out.
I did not cook dinner again last night. I am hoping to do that today. I still have to clean the air fryer, crockpot, and kitchen island.
I want to give Caleb the books we are going to be working out of. I want him to flip through the pages and get acquainted with the material he will be studying.
Caleb has to clean up the messes Bubba has made. He likes to tear up papers and drag them all over the place. So Caleb needs to be on Bubba clean-up detail.
Later today I will be driving to Tristan's house to get information about those kids from yesterday. I plan on filing a Police report, and might even show up with the Police at their homes. Not a joking matter.
It is now 0531. I was able to listen to the Lightbody Activation with palms up, and resting on my thighs, and sitting straight up for about 16 minutes. I had to close my eyes though, which Erica says to try to keep them open. The entire audio is more than 30 minutes long. I have to learn how to sit still in that position that long. I am sensing resistance to what she is saying. My thoughts go elsewhere and I lose concentration. I'm sure this is part of why she says to do it a minimum of 30 days in a row. I don't feel the things she says to feel yet. I don't sense the things she says to sense yet. I feel like I am reducing resistance by continuing on my path though.
I did not even do all of my morning routines yesterday. I walked around the house looking a hot mess because I did not even brush my hair. I'm doing my morning routines this morning though. I'm about to go do them now. I wonder if my dad is awake. I don't know why but I feel like calling him. Nope! I guess he is asleep because he did not answer.
Yesterday was the launch of the book "#BeastMode", by Sheila Farr. I wasn't feeling good so I had very little to do with the sales of the book yesterday. If it became a best-seller, it was not because of me at all.
My dad called me! LOL Yay! It's so early in the morning. He normally gets up for coffee in the morning. I can't just go around calling random people at 0546 in the morning. Going to chat for a bit and get my energy up then go do the rest of my morning routines. Be blessed my readers!
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