Thursday, September 1, 2022

New Start Day 32

     It is now 0229, and I have been awake for about 15 minutes. My CPAP turned off and when Caleb turned it back on for me, it would not stop leaking and squeaking as air escaped from my mask. I was feeling kind of sick anyway, so I got up to use the bathroom. So now I am at my chair, still tired but awake. I just checked all my emails, Facebook notifications, and text messages. I ate too much after I laid down last night. I ate too many of those keto nut and seed bars because I did not have a big enough dinner and could not fall asleep. 

    I am listening to Unlimited Abundance track #7 by Erica Rock. I have my planner set up so I can just look at it and tell what I need to listen to for the morning.

    Yesterday was a busy day. I went back to sleep after blogging yesterday morning. When I woke up, my direct deposit had been deposited, so I paid my bills. It takes a while to get that done, and track my budget. After that, I called my dad. We did not talk for long. I then turned on my radio and began to wash dishes. I washed as many by hand as I could fit into the dish strainer. I pre-washed the dishes that can be washed in the dishwasher and loaded the dishwasher. I took a break after that because my back was hurting and I ran out of space to put clean dishes. I had lunch and took a break, which led me to going to take a nap. I tried to sleep, but only rested because I could not stop thinking. I got up and Caleb wanted to go out to get his hair cut. He also said we had no more scrubbies to clean with, and that he wanted to buy food. When I was ready we left to go to Lowe's Foods. It is in the same shopping area as the Great Clips we go to for hair cuts. We checked in at Great Clips online and was on the waiting list, so we went to Lowe's Foods first. I bought my stuffed cherry peppers that I like to eat for snack, some keto snack bars, and some steaks on sale. Caleb wanted pierogies.

    We saw Lisa, my friend who works in the meat department, as she was walking to her car, and said hi. She came around and gave me a big hug! She is so nice to me. After grocery shopping, we went to get Caleb's hair cut. He came out looking good! Then we went home.

    I was tired after that. It was too hot outside for me, and I needed to cool off, so I sat in my chair for awhile and just hydrated. Then I put the radio back on and began cleaning the kitchen. I got alot done, but not all of it. I cleaned out the microwave finally, and detailed the stove top. I cleaned the countertop. I did not clean the air fryer, the crockpot, or the island. I did sweep the floor. I did that first before washing the dishes. Caleb took the trash out. 

    Caleb is hard to work with. He postpones everything I say to do. He doesn't just do what I say when I say to do it. I have to repeat myself over and over to make sure things get done. It's exhausting. I wanted him to straighten up the laundry room, and clean the floor in the there. Bubba had accidents that needed to be cleaned up. I wanted Caleb to work on that so I could get the laundry done without stepping in poop. I wanted him to work on that while I was busy cleaning the kitchen. Apparently I have to stand over him to get things done. What a pain in the ass! If we worked simultaneously, we could get so much more done together. 

    I am listening to the Lightbody Activation track now. I just took all my morning medications. It is now 0323.I'm tired but I have to stay up for awhile because I just took all those pills and I have to let them settle before laying down again. 

    Today I have to take Bubba to the vet to be weighed-in and to get his medication refills. I have to pick up Caleb's medication refills from CVS too. My discussion post is due today for my class. I have to get working on that worksheet that is due this week. I want to make sure my work gets a high grade. I am aiming for a 100, but feel like because it's the first one I have ever done, I am not likely to get a 100. I am trying though. I want to clean the air fryer, the crockpot, and the island. I want to get started on the laundry. I think that is all I will have time to do today. I would love to be able to clean more, but I have to get my homework done today. I wanted to work on my homework yesterday, but I ran out of time. I was tired after lunch and needed to nap. Maybe if I did not need to nap, I could have gotten more work done. It is what it is. I can only do so much. I worked so hard to get the kitchen cleaned that I had no energy to make the dinner I wanted. I ended up having a few slices of lunchmeat ham and sliced Swiss cheese, and a few bites of guacamole for my dinner. I really wanted to clean the kitchen to be able to cook those taco fajitas. I might be able to cook them tonight. We will see how tired I am when it gets to be dinner time. I tend to wear myself out. I don't have the energy I once had when I was younger. I am more tired during the day, and at the end of the day. I don't sleep through the night. I don't know why I can't get a full night's sleep. It's frustrating. I took one hydroxyzine and 1 melatonin last night in addition to my normal trazadone in the hopes I would get a whole night's sleep. It will be another day where I need to nap, I know that much. 

    I got most of my drinks in order yesterday. I have gallons of Spring water, gallons of sugar-free sweet tea, bottles of different flavors of sugar-free drinks including Propel and boxes of Diet Mountain Dew, so it's alot, and it's important to keep Caleb from just throwing them by the front door.

    I am so tired. I just finished listening to the Lightbody Activation meditation. I think I am ready to go back to sleep. I will write more later. I can't think right now. I'm too sleepy.

    It's now 0527 and I am back up. I had to use the bathroom so I had to get up. I feel better now. I think I can stay awake this time. 

    Caleb is sleeping in my bed with Bubba and Bella. I guess he found a wall art that says "Witchy Woman" on it because it is on the bed too. LOL

    So Disability Services at Capella gave me the syllabi for the two classes I am currently registered to take in the Fall so I could determine what the work load will be before I make my final decision. That's pretty awesome of them. 

    "#BeastMode" is being released today on amazon as an e-book!

    I am going to take a break from writing in anthologies. If I write at all, it will be here and/or my own book. 

    My favorite holidays are right around the corner. I have a dress for Halloween that looks like Sally's outfit from "the Nightmare Before Christmas" movie. I have a pretty dress to wear for Thanksgiving, and I think I have something nice to wear for Christmas too. I have been pondering what to do for Thanksgiving and Christmas dinner. I will still be on my diet. I might not have a traditional holiday dinner. It would be too much food for just Caleb and me anyway. I mean a whole turkey for each holiday? Too much. He won't even help me finish a whole rotisserie chicken! LOL

    I want to take photos with Caleb for the holidays. I don't know how I will manage that. Might just have to be selfies of us together. I want to take Caleb trick-or-treating again this year. I can't wait for the cooler weather! 

    My dad wants to see us soon. I have to figure out if that is even possible. He lives an hour and half away which is too far for me to drive back home in the same day. That means we have to stay the night. I hate the beds over there and I don't want to bring bugs back home. 

    This weekend is Labor Day weekend. One of Caleb's friends who use to live on our street is coming to town and wants to see Caleb. I told Caleb that we gotta get this house cleaned up before he comes over. I am hoping that gives him motivation to clean up.

    I just listened to Erica Rock's Mastery of Mind and Emotion track 1, and changed my desktop photo to the level 3 andara grid she used to attune me. That was an awesome idea.

    I am sleepy again. I know this much TMI but each time I woke up this morning, I had massive bowel movements. Doing that makes me tired. Literally draining. The pain in my lower back is no longer there too, and that feels so much better. I just want to curl up with Bubba and Bella and rest for a bit. On the other hand, I could be using this time to get my homework done. I am in no state of mind to look at my paper.

    I have had 2 Dews already. I should be wide awake. Erica's voice is soothing to me too. Maybe I should listen to the Instant Uplift track by her! Yep, playing it now.

    I lit some candles yesterday while I was cleaning in the morning. One of the candles was from Bath & Body works. It was labelled for stress relief, and scented as Eucalyptus and Spearmint. It was so nice to actually be able to smell the candle. It really was calming to me too! It was awesome that I found a candle that I can smell and use to my benefit. I might have to buy some more at some point. I will wait until the next sale.

    I got a compliment on my sunflower tank top from Maurice's yesterday by Jasmine at Great Clips. That was nice of her. It's been a long time since someone complimented me on anything!

    It is now 0609. I wonder if my dad is awake. This track is making me feel more awake. I am supposed to lay down for 20 minutes. Be blessed my readers!


    

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