It is now 0027. There is no reason for me to be awake at this time, but here I am. Yesterday I slept in after I went back to sleep. Caleb and I slept in until 0930. I woke up and gave him his medications, and got to work on my homework. I had to complete the reading of the hyperlinked media, read the chapter for the week, complete the weekly quiz, and work on my literary analysis paper. I worked on that all my waking hours until I couldn't work on the computer anymore due to becoming sensitive to all the reading and staring at the screen. I did the best I could and did a lot. I found the 3 articles I want to use in my paper, which can be the hardest part.
I finally made myself a huge salad for lunch and dinner. I made enough salad for more than one meal to eat right away, and made enough of the greens for more than one day.
Caleb did not get any work done. I was too busy with my homework to keep pushing him.I was so tired yesterday. It rained a lot during the day and we even had a tornado warning. I felt pain all over my body and just wanted to be in bed. It's a miracle that I was able to get any work done.
I used my alpha-stim before bed again. It helps me relax and fall asleep.
Yesterday I bought clothes in my new size for the Fall season. Buying clothes is getting expensive, but I don't like wearing baggy clothing.
I am listening to Unlimited Abundance track 16. Caleb is asleep in my bed. Bella is out here with me. Bubba is asleep in his crate.
Today I am going to focus more on doing my housework than my homework. I want to get the kitchen cleaned up, and wash the dishes. I want to get Caleb to pick up the trash that Bubba created on the floor in the living room especially, but also in the hallway. He got into the toilet paper and tore it all up!
I am listening to the Infinite Blessings audios. Right now I am listening to "Forgiveness," and will follow it with "Divine Grace" and "Love."
I am now listening to the Lightbody Activation meditation. I just took my medications. Caleb got up for a drink and went back to bed.
I printed the prayers from the Howard Wills website yesterday. I will recite those prayers after I complete this audio.
I was so tired yesterday that I never did my hair. My body just ached all day. It makes me want to stay in bed all day and rest.
So, I am going on this journey of self-exploration, self-help, and enlightenment by listening to these audio files and reading my books. Unfortunately, because my schoolwork takes so much of my time and energy, I don't read as much of what I want to read right now. I am doing well in keeping my routine in the mornings with listening to Erica's audio files. I have invested in the Calm app and the FitMind app to help me with meditating with other audio tracks during the day. I want to be able to walk in the mornings on my incline trainer and do yoga to stretch. I am still doing ok on the Virta diet. I saw weight loss yesterday. I did not weigh in this morning yet. Usually I weigh in after I use the bathroom right away after waking up. I will have to wait until all these fluids I have been drinking have passed to get an accurate reading now. My belly is shrinking! I am so happy about that. It is so hard to keep having ideas about foods that I cannot have on this diet. I wanted noodles so badly the other day. I always want pizza. I think about food a lot. I am hoping to change that with meditation. I am also hoping to let go of all the fear I feel all the time and shows up in my anxiety levels. I am working on self-love, self-compassion, self-forgiveness, and forgiveness of others. The prayers will help with that too.
I tried to ask for friends on Erica's Facebook page, but I do not think she approved my post. I did the same thing for the Veterans Unleashed Women's Facebook page, and I do not think that post was approved either. I don't know why. I never got any responses, so I am assuming they were never posted.
I made hard-boiled eggs yesterday. Pretty happy about that. It's been a long time since I've made them.
I have to find my books that have the journal prompts I was planning to use. They are here somewhere. I also subscribed to an email that is a bunch of prompts. Perhaps I will start there since I have been collecting them.
I have no idea what's coming up this week. Let me check my calendar. Tomorrow is my dad's birthday. I have the Unleash Your Life zoom call tomorrow night. I have the one-on-one call with Coach Brandi Tuesday morning. I registered for the Curable app zoom meeting for Wednesday night about fibromyalgia flare-ups. Sunday we have the Situational Awareness class in the afternoon.
I was hoping to go visit my dad, but I can't manage it right now. I have so much work to do at home. It takes me several days to recover from traveling, so it's not like I can just go and come back and be ok. It's a lot of work to travel with 2 dogs anyways. I wanted to be able to see him for his birthday, and let him meet Bubba.
I have that 5 page literary analysis due this week too. I don't want to get behind on that. It will take a lot of time for me to get it right with all the citations and everything. If I went to visit my dad, I would not get my homework done for sure. I would be too busy recovering.
I am now listening to Optimal Health and Well-Being audio 4.
It is now 0210. I have been awake for a long time now. It is best to listen to these audio files when Caleb is not awake because he interrupts them when he is awake. So, I make the most of my time while I am awake and he is sleeping by listening to them.
Bella is begging me to go back to bed. I am not ready to go back to bed yet. After this transmission, I still have to read my prayers. Each prayer is supposed to be said 3 times. It takes some time. I wrote to Erica yesterday asking if she received the andara that was mailed back to her erroneously. She has not received them yet. I also told her that I printed the prayers so I could say them daily. She responded that she said them 3 times a day for over a year and it changed her life. I bet it did because that's a lot of time and energy!
I have not been doing Reiki lately. I am working with source energy, and that part is the same with Reiki, but I am not doing the Reiki practices. It was time consuming and not as enjoyable as I needed it to be to continue on a daily basis. I find what I am doing now more enjoyable and easier to maintain.
I wonder what today's weather will be like. I don't want to go anywhere today. I just want to stay at home and get things done. I hope I am not tired like I was yesterday. I can never tell until it happens. There is no way to predict how my body will feel. I guess I could look at the weather report for the week. The weather has a huge impact in how my body feels. I feel a lot of pain when it rains. I feel more motivated to get things done when it is sunny.
I want to go through my wardrobe again and donate the clothes that are too big for me now. I have to make room for the new clothes that are coming.
Chris, our next door neighbor, put together the lawn mower for us yesterday. I bought it months ago, and never put it together. I want Caleb to learn how to use it and take care of it. I want him to mow the lawn for me. He has so much energy naturally, it should be easy for him to do if he can stay on task, which is a hard thing for him to do.
This transmission is done in silence. I think I will go ahead and say my prayers so I can go back to bed. I am ready to lay down. I will complete my other morning routines when I get back up with Caleb. Be blessed my readers!
Today is September 11. 2022. It was September 11, 2001 when the twin towers collapsed due an intentional airplane crash by terrorists. At that time, I was only 18 years old. I was living in Greensboro, NC at the UNCG campus. I was attending my first semester at UNCG as a college freshman. I remember the day. The story of what was happening was all over the tv. I saw the twin towers on fire. I remember worrying about where my grandpa was. I remember calling to find out if he was ok. I remember all the panic that came after, all the deaths, and the rescue attempts. #IRemember
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