Sunday, September 18, 2022

New Start Day 48

     It is now 0528 and I have taken my medications. I am now listening to "Abundance and Prosperity." I was having some issues playing my audio files, so I had to restart my computer. It is working now, thank God! Yesterday I got up around 0930, after going to bed at 0700. I gave Caleb his medications and began to read the second article for my paper. I needed a break after trying to read through all the statistics in it. I called my dad. I then had ham and cheese for lunch. I had hard boiled eggs for breakfast. I did not want to go right back to doing my homework, so I tidied the kitchen up a bit. I called my dad again before deciding that I needed to rest. I went to take a nap, but did not sleep. I got back up and began to take notes on the second article. I read the third article with more ease. I began to take notes on it but it was dinner time. I just wanted to go to bed, so I had ham and cheese once again, and took my medications. I used my alpha-stim and listened to the Jetsons on DVD. While it was a slow moving day for me, I did make progress on my homework. I have not started to write my paper yet though. It is due today by midnight. I was hoping to have it mostly done by now so I would not be thinking about it during the Situational Awareness class today. I might have to skip the class. I really wanted to go for Caleb's sake. I don't know how much more time I need to get this paper done correctly. I have trouble paraphrasing, and that's a big part of it. 

    I am listening to "Unlimited Abundance" track 21 now. 

    I am back to using the Apollo neuro. It works for me sometimes.

    I bought more leggings in my current size yesterday. They were on sale. I think I might be this size longer than expected since I am having trouble keeping my ketones above 0.4, and have not started exercising. I love leggings. They are so comfortable. It's like walking around in my pajamas all day. 

    Caleb asked for more shirts, and they were on sale yesterday, so I bought him some. 

    All of the Chewy order came in. I had to buy dog food, training treats, bowls, and a new washable bed for Bubba. 

    The banned books I ordered came in yesterday, along with the bookcase for my room. 

    I have to get Caleb to break these boxes down and take them to the trash bins.

    I think my Maurices shipment came in yesterday, but I did not open it. It's my next size down clothes. I was thinking I might want to send them back and order them when I need them. 

    My last order of Andara came in the mail yesterday. So did our LoveTuner necklaces. I am hoping the LoveTuner will help my anxiety and help me quit vaping by giving me an alternative to inhale or blow out. I am already wearing it. It sounds at 528Hz, the frequency of love. 

    I am listening to Lightbody Activation now.

    I got my fibromyalgia workbook for free by watching the Curable Groups video. It is too expensive for me to join the Groups program right now, but I hope I can join in the future. It is promising for any chronic pain patient. It includes weekly classes that are available online, and a group meeting. Enrollment is every 3 months. I have to find my way out of debt before I can join. 

    I bought a year of the Curable app though, at 50% off. I hope to use it to monitor my symptoms, learn about flare-ups, learn about how to decrease flare-ups primarily, and how to decrease my pain that is caused and associated with trauma stored in my body.

    Caleb saw the Charlotte's Web book, and was like I've read that before! LOL I don't think he has ever read a book from cover to cover. It will be a good book to start with though, from the banned books list. 

    He asked what was in the big box. I told him "It's a bookcase." He responded, "but where are you going to put it?" LOL In my room! LOL "but where in your room?" The walls in my house are lined with bookcases, much like the house I lived in throughout high school. I love books. I will always make room for books. When I leave this plane, I hope my books find good homes and are read by many. 

    Just for the record, my dad gave me a lot of good memories too. Unfortunately, the traumatic memories are the ones that stand out and receive my attention. My dad would take Mathew and me roller skating every Saturday afternoon, for years. I love roller skating even to this day. When we got older, we would go to the night session either on Friday or Saturday from 7:30pm to 11:00pm. He would drop us off with our friends and let us skate our hearts out. 

    He took us to Fort Fisher beach in the Summer. He took us to visit grandma and grandpa de Mello on Christmas break. We went to Golden Corral almost every week as a family for dinner. We listened to Soul Train or my dad's stereo every Saturday morning to get the house cleaning done. He joked all the time with us kids. He took us to almost every fair at Ft. Bragg fairgrounds when we lived in Spring Lake. There was Summerfest, Oktoberfest, and Springfest! We went to see fireworks on the 4th of July at Ft. Bragg. 

    Anyway, just trying to make the trauma shrink by focusing on the good times.

    Caleb woke up, but I think he went back to bed. Bella is here with me, laying on the floor in a doughnut shape. Bubba is comfortable on his new bed in his crate. 

    So, I'm sure I have mentioned before that I can not watch the news anymore. The book I am reading now, Emotional Inflammation, is letting me know that I am really not alone in that. I can read news clips online from time to time to keep up with what is going on, but I can't spend a lot of time on it. It makes me depressed and sometimes angry. I don't like that I feel like I have no power or control in what is going on in the world. I will be voting this November. I feel like that is the least I can do. I wish I had the time and energy to personally advocate for all the things that are important to me. I try to follow groups that do just that, but I can not keep u with all the newsletters. 

    I have been unsuccessful in making friends online. I am not really putting in any effort though. 

    I am listening to the Mastery of Mind and Emotions series again. 

    Caleb asked if he could wear my uniform for Halloween. I told him I would think about it.

    I need to take a shower this morning. I am in the middle of the Mastery of Mind and Emotions series right now. It is 0644 now. I want to get laundry done, but I am struggling to get Caleb to clean up the laundry room for me. I want to be able to walk back there without falling and hurting myself. I need to wash my favorite leggings! LOL Yes. Leggings, leggings, and more leggings! Tis the season for leggings! And Harry Potter! Tis the season for Harry Potter! I love those movies, especially the first 3, when the actors are just little kids. 

    I don't know what I am doing for dinner yet. I need to cook that ground beef before it goes bad. I might just make a bunch of taco fajitas. Caleb was going to eat the leftover boneless pork ribs last night but he burned them while heating them up in the microwave. Caleb lost the divider for the trash can. The new trash can I bought holds 2 bags, and has a lid. I don't know where the divider went, but I have a feeling it is somewhere in one of the trash bins outside. He is going to have to sort through the trash bins to find it. The trash bags won't stay in place without that thing. 

    I feel calm right now. This series is really helpful. 

    The paper I am writing is about 3 articles I chose on Autism Spectrum Disorder and video games. The articles are from peer-reviewed professional journals. I need to get working, but I want a shower first. I haven't been reciting the Howard Wills' prayers this week. I want to get back to doing that too.

    I wonder if my dad is awake yet. He gets up in the morning for coffee with the night shift worker in the office over there. I'm sure he is awake, but not by his phone. 

    Erica Rock has posted some new videos on the group page. I need to catch up, but I think I will wait until tomorrow to do that since I woke up later than usual this morning. 

    I need to remember to eat eggs for breakfast. I don't want them to go bad before I can eat them. Adding them to my diet is good for the variety factor in my diet. This audio is almost done.  

    Be blessed my readers!

    

    


     

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