It is now 0225. I am tired, but I am awake because I needed a drink, to use the bathroom, and I was not comfortable in the bed anymore. Bella and Caleb sleep close to me, and eventually I have no room to move when I need to. It's the third night in a row this has been the case. It's too early for me to take my medications. My entire body aches with pain. I feel like someone beat me with 2x4.
I got very little done yesterday. I had to rest after 3 rounds of diarrhea. I forgot to have breakfast totally. I had keto bars for lunch.
I wrote to my professor, my academic advisor, and disability services yesterday. I was approved for an accommodation of an extra 7 days to submit most assignments. I wrote my professor:
"Thank you for acknowledging me as a person. I know it may seem like it was nothing to you, but I come from a dark place. I am working on myself currently, and have been for years now. I will always appreciate being treated as someone with value, as I have not always been treated that way. Thank you for guiding me in the right direction, and not making me feel like less of a person for needing help. It wasn't easy to ask for help. I felt more comfortable asking you because I relate to your weekly update videos, and you seem like a safe person to talk to. I love your personality and sunny way of being on screen. I want to let you know how much receiving help means to me. It means I may just be able to make it through this degree program, which means that pursuing my doctorate is a possibility. That's huge! It's my dream to graduate with a phD. Thank you so much!
Although
it might be inappropriate between professor and student, I would totally love
to hug you right now!
Nothing but love,
Jennifer de Mello."
I also decided to share my blog on my Facebook business page and Instagram. I posted this in multiple groups I belong to too:
"I write a daily journal in the form of a blog. So far, I am getting better with my written and verbal communication when I blog first thing in the morning. It gives me a quiet time to collect my thoughts and reflect on what happened the day before. I know it is not the most interesting thing to read, and up until today I have not attempted to share with people outside of my Facebook newsfeed. I thought my family and friends could appreciate knowing what's going on over here in social isolation land as a disabled veteran and single mother of a 13 year old with ASD too. I guess I was wrong. I am sadly disappointed that I have lost what few readers I had.
The
intent is to just work on myself and parent my son. The sharing with others
came to mind when I realized that I hate talking on the phone to get the same
conversation over and over and over again with family and friends. I type it
once, and it's there for whoever is interested when they are ready to read.
It is also easier than writing my stories in multiple groups, even
if I did think to just copy and paste. Anyhow, I just wanted to share that I
stepped out of my comfort zone and posted a link to my blog on my Facebook
business page and my Instagram page. That's a huge Win for me!"
I made the effort to share my blog with as many people as possible without breaking the rules of the groups. I could not share my link, but I could post as I did.
I responded to Ali's last message concerning her workshop. I thought I responded when I got the message, but I guess I didn't.
I started reading a new book. It is 12 Secret Laws of Self-Realization: A Guide to Enlightenment and Ascension by a Modern Mystic by Shahram Shiva. I am more than halfway through it already. I read it while I was resting in bed yesterday afternoon, until I needed to sleep. I am excited to get through another book that has just been waiting for me to read it.
I did not do any housework. As far as homework, I did very little of that too. I think I only read the responses to my post. I have to read through the BACB website to understand everything there about supervision before I will be ready to take the quiz. I want to get that completed soon so I can work ahead and get started on the paper that is due for week 9.
I think I am ready to take my medications now. BRB. Done.
I am listening to Jana Carrey's "Journey to the Avalon Priestess Temple" right now. She had a 50% sale for her media and I had to jump right on that because I want to follow and explore with several people at the same time. I bought her entire library so I should have plenty to listen to for the rest of the year.
I set my intention for my complete health and healing, vibrational upgrades to my community, and healing for the entire planet.
This audio is so interesting.
Today's goals are to do what I could not do yesterday. I need to wash laundry pending the clean up of the laundry room by Caleb. The kitchen needs my attention today. I think I will cook the whole chicken I bought in the crockpot today for dinner. I want to work on my homework for school too. I think I can accomplish these things today with no complications.
I want Caleb to focus his energy on beginning to read one of the banned books I bought. I will probably guide him to read Charlotte's Web first as it is easier to read than the others. I also want his energy to be used to help me clean up the house. I need him to clear the mess in the hallway and shop vac it. He will be prepping it for me to use my pet vac and carpet cleaner. I need his help to remove the old mattress protector from my bed and put the new one on. I have faith we can get these things done today.
I want to be able to focus my energy tomorrow on the paper due in week 9.
I used the Curable app last night while I was using my alpha-stim. I listened to the introductory education and then listened to a 10 minute meditation. I was totally relaxed in bed last night, and it's been a long time since I have felt that way.
I ate some of Caleb's Brazilian cheese bread last night too. I love that stuff but it's not allowed on my diet.
I have to update my biomarker spreadsheet for my appointment tomorrow with the VA pharmD.
That audio was more than 2 hours long, but I sat through the whole thing and am better for it. I feel a lot better now. So cool how that goes. There were pegasus unicorns, dragons, Mother Mary, Morgan la Fey, Merlin, and St. Germain at Avalon. So cool to be present in the space created. Felt really safe and loving.
I think I need a nap after all of that. That was a lot of healing work, and the healing continues. I need water and rest. It is only 0517 so I have time to sleep before my day really starts. Be blessed my readers!
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