It is now 0330 and I have already taken most of my medications. I took all except the Victoza shot. I am feeling ok right now. My pain is at a manageable level. I can work through this level of pain and get things done as long as it does not get worse. Yesterday was a bad pain day. I ended up in bed for the afternoon and went to bed early after dinner. I was able to update one of my bill spreadsheets yesterday morning. That takes a long time to update because I have so many accounts to get information on. I am happy I was able to get that updated though. I was able to do the daily quiz and I was able to respond to the two students who responded to my discussion post. I only need one more post response for the week. The only other thing I have to turn in this week is the quiz. I wanted to get started on the paper that is due next week. I got overwhelmed by the instructions again. It's a lot of text.
I ordered a new type of CBD capsule product from a Facebook friend yesterday. I am going to try it for 30 days and see if it helps my pain levels. I wanted to put a list together of the interventions I am using to manage my pain. Here it is:
Bed rest
Drink more water than usual
Drink less Diet Mountain Dew than usual
Swanson Calm Concentration supplement
Swanson CBD + Stress Support supplement
Acetaminophen 1000mg every 6 hours (2 pills)
Hydroxyzine (2 pills in the morning, 2 pills in the afternoon, and 2 pills at night)
Alpha-Stim
Apollo Neuro wristband
Curable app meditation
Morning guided meditations/energy transmissions
Healing Music/energy transmissions
Self-created thought loops (meditation) to ground and connect to the Source of all creation
Trazadone 100mg to help sleep
Too many supplements from Swanson Vitamins to list
Far-Infrared tank top under clothing
hot showers
stretching
blogging and expressing myself through posts
giving my dogs body rubs and loving on them
sleeping and cuddling with my dogs
Delta-8 e-cigarette ( only used when I can't take the pain anymore to avoid going to the ER)
Stress Relief aromatherapy products from Bath & Body Works
Essential oils and diffuser
Incense
Candles
Crystals
Andara
Checking my blood glucose
vaping my e-cigarette
self-Reiki
Reiki from others
Prayers
Virta diet
non-Virta diet (I've tried both)
I've tried Naproxen, Aspirin, and Ibuprofen
I've had Tramadol
I've used Lidocaine back patches
I've used IcyHot balm
apothecary-made herbal tincture
The things I am considering for the future are:
Massage chair
Massage therapy session
Far Infrared heated blanket use (I have one, but am not currently using it)
Grounding Mat (I have one, but am not currently using it)
Vagal Toning Program (I started, but did not finish)
Walking on my incline trainer
Checking my blood pressure
Using a pain relief lotion or balm
reading my books about chronic pain
education through the Curable app on chronic pain
this new product called something like VitalSense cell or something like that
Talk therapy
taking longer breaks (currently not taking breaks) between meditations/energy transmissions
tapping
breath work
That's a long list!
In other news, I was having trouble reaching my dad for motivation yesterday. I needed a pep-talk from him, but his phone was not ringing when I called it. I don't know what the problem was. I thought it was because his phone needed charging, but then he called me back once, and I couldn't hear him properly. The connection was bad. I tried calling Dona Sharon's phone but no one answered the phone. I tried to call the room, but the phone was off the hook. Ugh! I felt so stuck in my own pain and all I wanted to do was get out of it and move on. I had so much work to be done, and I got none of it done. I could hardly even manage and supervise Caleb.
We are still working on the mountain of laundry that Caleb has created by never turning in his dirty clothes to be washed. I still have my laundry to be washed. I still have so many chores to do and so does Caleb. I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, and it sucks! I'm a high achiever and I can't deal with being anything less. I am feeling better now, and I hope it keeps up through the rest of the day. I am taking a break from listening to the meditations I like to listen to in the mornings. I feel like I might have rushed into some things that because I am not fully aware of what I am doing in advance, can't plan on how it will affect me. Now I know better. I need time between each meditation that I want to do, especially since they are all dealing with energy transmission, clearing, and healing. They are not just strolls on the beaches.
So, this morning I am sitting in silence with the fan in the background. I am cooling off as I get too warm with Bella sleeping right next to me. She was sleeping with her head on me for awhile. It was nice to be so loved by a sweet animal.
I ordered Jersey Mike's delivery for dinner last night. I had no ability to go to the grocery store to shop for food for dinner yesterday. I wanted to in order to save money, but my body was in too much pain. I did not want to order pizza again, and I love Jersey Mike's Italian sub, so... Once again, I know it is not part of my Virta diet, but I had to eat something.
I think the rain from Hurricane Ian began to hit Florida yesterday. It was a category 3 hurricane the last time I checked yesterday. I am glad my grandparents are not there.
I am feeling well enough to take a shower, so I might have to take advantage of feeling good enough to do it. I do not know what today brings. Hopefully I can recover from all the meditations I have put myself through in the desire to be free from pain. I was shooting myself in the foot. I have to slow down. I don't need to rush the process. I am making good progress, but I need to learn to rest.
I got in touch with my Aunt Lisa yesterday. She is such a light in my life. I was happy to hear from her as it has been so long. Maybe today I can go mail out the books to my Aunt Lisa and my grandparents. We shall see.
I got a text message from my mom. I like to have communication with her.
I had to liquidate my Schwab account to pay bills. I waited as long as I could before selling what I had. Things cost so much right now, and my bills are only getting higher. If I don't find a way to make money soon, I'm not going to be in a good place financially. I'm already in a bad place. I can't work fast enough. Fibromyalgia knocks me down for days now, and I can't get anything done that I need to get done.
Clothes are expensive. Caleb is growing and I am shrinking. Food is expensive even though I do most of my shopping at Walmart, only buying groceries on sale from other stores. I know I am not the only one suffering, but I tend to feel like it.
I am wondering if I could apply for grants to market and advertise my business.
I am thinking I need to take a longer break from school than just one quarter. I am overwhelmed by the amount of work I need to do right now. I just want to get it done and finished. At the same time, I am trying to teach Caleb how to take care of himself and his belongings. That means I have to let him do the work that he created. I can't just go in and fix everything like I want. Parenting is hard! I want him to learn to be responsible so this is what I have to do. He needs to learn to clean up after himself, so I have to wait and let him learn. I need patience. I need to rest. It's not my job to clean after him anymore. He is 13 years old and more than capable of cleaning up after himself. I can do this. He can do this. We can do this. It's going to be ok. I just have to stick with it until he learns. Ugh!
I am still feeling ok, but I kinda want to go cuddle with Bella for awhile. It's still dark outside. It's only 0451 right now.
Sending love and light to you all!
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