It is now 1:18 a.m. and Caleb and I woke up at the same time. He is talkative. I had to use the bathroom. Yesterday was a busy day. I ran a lot of errands back to back to try to catch up. I made a lot of progress on the kitchen. I have come to the conclusion that our school days are not going to look like a regular school day. I can not sit in one place all day and run the house. Caleb can not sit in one place all day period.
I missed my Wounded Warrior Project class AND my Veterans Path class yesterday. I was just too tired.
After being talked back to about cleaning the living room back to the way I had cleaned it, I told Caleb if he continues on this path he is going to a Group Home. He has been leaving the house without permission, even while I am sleeping. I must have reached my limit. I did not have it planned to talk to him about a group home. It just kind of came out. If he can't follow my rules, something has to change. I can not be responsible for someone who just doesn't care about safety. I can not run my house like a prison. I should not wake up to find my 11 year old son gone! I've had enough of this bullshit. Maybe you are blessed and don't know someone with ODD, but I live with someone I'm responsible for who does have it.
I felt really down after that conversation. I don't want things to go that way. I'm a single parent with disabilities. I can only do so much. I don't have support here. He needs to realize the seriousness of his actions.
I do not think Bella has ear mites. I think she has seasonal allergies. I am going to go ahead and continue treatment for ear mites, just in case I am wrong. The Chewy supplies I ordered arrived yesterday, so she tried her allergy chews for the first time. She liked them! Bella has a vet visit scheduled for next month for updates on her shots. I will have her checked out then, as long as her symptoms seem to be getting better. If they get worse, I will have to take her in sooner.
Today we are going to try to get some lessons done. I don't think we have any appointments, and I don't have to go anywhere. It should be a good school day, pending Caleb's behavior.
Caleb starts and additional medication today so let's see how that goes.
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