Today's prompt is "Who do you need to call?" Ghostbusters! LOL
It is 5:17 a.m. here now. I am thirsty, hot, and needed charged batteries for my e-cigarette. Yesterday was a pretty good day. I woke up at 9:30 a.m. and was tired like I hadn't slept at all. I was slow moving all morning. I barely was able to get my medications taken and a meal eaten before it was time to go. I did get Caleb to restart the dryer first thing, so the clothes were dry just before we left. I sorted through them just minutes before we left to got to Hayley's birthday party. I wanted to make sure we went through all of Caleb's clothes at once, so there were no clothes that he couldn't wear leftover. We were able to donate 2.5 kitchen sized trash bags to Gage!
I was planning on getting a shower and wearing my new dress to the birthday party, but things did not work out that way. I ended up leaving without a shower, and going to the party the way I woke up, not even having done my hair. I was so tired. I thought it was more important to show up than to look nice anyway. I was right. Donna was just happy we made it.
Everybody had a good time. The kids played on the giant inflatable water slide. It was a sunny and hot day. There was lots of pizza and snacks. We had cake! We came back home shortly after Hayley opened her presents though, because I had to let Bella out and also because my feet were hurting. When I got home, and went to bed to put my feet up, my hips and everything below were in pain.
I am still tired. I could sleep all day. I am so thirsty though, and keep waking up because I am getting hot. I am glad I have this window unit air conditioner in here. I can feel it.
At bed time, I cried. I had a brief conversation with my aunt Lisa about my blog post earlier. I cried for the person I lost when I was hospitalized, and the life I lost afterwards. I felt like I could cry for days. Bella was laying on my belly at the time. I text my Aunt Lisa and Rachel. I wanted to hold Bella close forever. Caleb made her go away with a treat because he came in and wanted to hug me. I told him I wanted to be alone and that I was crying.
I told my Aunt Lisa that as long as Mathew leaves me alone, it should pass quickly. Good things have happened between then and now too.
Man, I am chugging this Gatorade Zero. I am just dying of thirst.
I didn't want to get up. I have to get up in a couple of hours to shower and get ready to go to Caleb's appointments. I need sleep. I am exhausted. I didn't even put together this week's schedule yet. I will probably do that when I get back from the appointments, because I left my phone in my room. My eyes are burning hot.
I have been drinking Dew all day for the last 4 or 5 days to stay awake and get things done. It has worked, but at a cost. I can't keep it up everyday. Eventually I burn out. I need down time to rest and catch back up.
Caleb is now taller than his friends his age! LOL He is almost taller than me. He was measured at 5 feet 5 inches at his last appointment, with his shoes on. With his shoes off, he is not as tall, but still tall.
It was nice to go spend time with my friends. I have not seen them since before March. Donna and her kids moved away. Alisa started working at Dollar General on the island, and I hate to bother her. I met some new people. I got to be around little kids and a baby! I got to hug my friends. I'm glad we went to Hayley's birthday party.
They said I could have gone on the slide! LOL Oh no! Not me! I told them I'm over 300 lbs! When they told me that someone who was about 400 lbs went, I thought about it.
It's nice to be included.
It was the first time we went to Donna's new house. She lives out in the country. We took a lot of back roads to get there.
I am tasting the early morning meal I had a few hours ago. I had the leftover chicken breast with peppers, onion, and black beans. I thought maybe if I ate, I would sleep better.
I got all of Caleb's clothes washed now. I just have a few linens to wash and put away, and I will be caught up on the laundry finally. I caught up on the dishes Saturday. I have to hurry up and spray because I am finding huge bugs around. I want them to die!
I am feeling better than when I went to bed. I am no longer sad.
I am not looking forward to weighing in this morning. I know I weigh more now than I did last week. I ate a lot of pizza yesterday, and have not digested it yet.
I have my weight management class on the phone this afternoon. I have to find the call-in directions.
I am expecting packages to arrive this afternoon. Hopefully I will not be disappointed.
I have household finances and scheduling to work on.
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